Tidbits of Random Awesomeness

I wonder if my dog will let me take video of him. He’s making weird noise because the gardener is outside and my dog is both trying to protect me and not be annoying at the same time. (:

I’m a very happy monkey about now. Other than the whole don’t have sex for the next few weeks thing I’m feeling great. I’m better than normal and hey, if not having sex right now means my daughter gets to stay in me and grow, it’s worth it.

My husband actually catches me off guard with how excited he is for our baby. He randomly does things that just make me smile. Today he said “I can’t wait to meet our little poo maker” and he also came up and hugged me while I was making dinner and rubbed my belly.

We also found out our baby will be the first girl on his side of the family since 1980. Wow. She’s going to be super spoiled. Help.

Part of me still worries because I’m not at viability (24 weeks) but I need to start enjoying this pregnancy. My scare last week left me crying randomly every day and I don’t want to do it anymore. I have to have hope this baby will make it. We caught my IC just in time. Her kicks get stronger and more frequent every day. Hubby and I even started planning out her nursery. Hoping for my rainbow.

I’m officially off bed rest! I got a call this morning to go to work and said NOPE because I didn’t want to go rather than I can’t go. It was awesome. After the crap my husband went through (for taking days to take care of me while i was in the hospital) because other teachers are taking off because they’re tired of working…. Fuck off.

I think I’m just grumpy today. I’m also out of shimmery white yarn for my baby blanket and have to go out and get more. Also my tummy is not happy with the cereal I had this morning. My brows feel like they are permanently furrowed.

Doctors appointment todaaaaay. Check up woo! Lets hope I’m not home bound and on bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy. D: that would suck. I’d like to go get a haircut. Buy some stuff for baby. Breathe fresh air and leave the damn house. D:

My hubby has been coming home early from work to take care of me. He got angry and said he was upset that my family wasn’t stepping up to help me out to which I responded that he is my family and he smiled and gave me a kissy. I love that man so freaking much. He takes such good care of me and our Lil one.

So I went into surgery yesterday to get a stitch on my cervix. My doctor was really happy we caught it when we did because my cervix was 3cm dialated and I might have lost the baby if we didn’t catch it. However, because I was so dialated they are keeping me in the hospital until Friday to monitor for infection. I didn’t get to go home. Luckily the staff here has been great and really helpful. My husband also took the week off from work to take care of me. Oh, and baby didn’t hide from the doppler for once! As soon as the surgery was over they checked for baby’s heart and BAM there it was. Unfortunately after that baby hid from them when they checked again later. Oh dear… I’m doing good and so is baby. (: hoping I can keep baby in a few more months. (:

Just when I think I’m ok I find out something else is wrong with me. I went in today and saw my baby which was amazing. I also got told I have an incompetent cervix which was not so great. So currently I’m on bed rest because my cervix is dilating early and may not hold my baby to full term. So tomorrow, to fix this, I have to go into surgery and placed under anesthesia so my baby an grow more. A stitch is being put in Around my cervix to hold baby in. This baby already has us wrapped around its tiny little finger and I will do anything to see it. I’m also keeping baby’s sex a secret until Saturday.

It was just painful to be back in the hospital registering for another surgery before this baby is born. The last time I was there I had a d&c. I cried a bunch due to old memories and being mad at my own body. Why couldn’t I have a normal pregnancy? Maybe after the surgery I can. *sigh*

I’m so bored right now! Need this work day to be overrrrr. I want to see my baby! I can’t wait for tomorrow morning.

Trying to sing while sick…. Still! A friend of mine posted a picture of sign star on her Facebook and it made me oh so sad. She tagged me as one of the people who could beat her (on certain songs mind you) in that game. Why do you have to be hundreds of miles away?! I started thinking… JEEEEZE. Have I lost touch with my friends who like to sing with me? Cindy was lost a long time ago, Vicky I haven’t seen in a personal setting since 2012 even though she lives down the street, and Ash lives in San Antonio and Karina won’t sing with me much. I am a very sad monkey today. Maybe my hubby will come home and sing with me later.

In any case I’m sitting here singing songs and laughing at my voice cracking. Oi. Maybe I should stop using my microphone when I’m sick. Maybe I’m making everyone sick. Lol.

I watched him sleep last night. He was tired from a long journey; knowing he had work in the morning. I watched as his soft breaths turn into loud snores and was comforted that he was resting, smiling because I missed him. A part of me needed my skin to touch his throughout the night and I was happy he was home.